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Victoria wrote on Sat, 16 August 2008 10:53

“i for once, thought life is measured by what you have… what you earn… what your status in society is… but now as i live longer, i realize i’m not even half of what i thought i am.. many more people are better than me. smarter, wealthier, more loved and the list just goes on… and then i started to question.. what makes me? i’m no better… i’m being pushed too hard to aim what i can’t even think i could… i struggle.. and then i try… i struggle harder and harder and even more and yet at the end, it’s all just nothing.. coz i am just nothing. only a spec… my friends think i’m great, i’m lucky, and that i have everything!!!! BUT WHAT THEY DO NOT KNOW IS THAT I FEEL THAT I”M NOTHING… right now, i’m starting to think that i’m going crazy… because people see me as a very very happy, cheerful and contented person. i want to believe  iam. i do. believe me… but i just can’t seem to keep up with the act anymore… i cry… i pray… but i feel so empty.. my close friends tell me i’m alryt but i know, a hundred percent that i am not… literary, what i’m doing ryt now is crazy coz i’m a very private person and yet i’m pouring myself out… some things are just out of my control… “ 

 

 

Hi, just wanna try if i could somehow help…

 

Being an innocent person or living a simple life like people living up in the mountains, rural areas, those who are less fortunate will not be thinking how life is measured, whats their status,.. cuz, their main problem will be food, how to get their children to school, but their primary concern will always be food. and also its a given fact that they have accepted their status in the society. and it is also another fact that anybody from a given society; rich or poor, gay or straight, stupid or smart.. has the right to dream of acheiving something or lets say a dream of becoming rich. and inorder to achieve their goal.. the road to success is not as easy as we might thought to be, might not be forgiving or mercyful.. like for example Manny Pacquiao.. before he became the PACMAN. he was a nobody. and before he entered boxing. he never thought of becoming a champion or become a wealthy person and be able to help those people hu are in need.. His only concern during those time was to earn money and help his family.. And because of his dedication, determination, passion to the sport, his now standing on top of the world. And even if his up there.. He always find ways to help his countrymen specially those who are in need.. and lets not talk about his vices.. that a given already, cuz you know, his childhood was not that memorable enough to be recorded in a video camera or a digicam, he dont have proper education cuz they dont have the financial capabilities. and also all humans are not perfect. in one way or another we have flaws and imperfections.. will just have to learn to accept ourselves and be contended that, thats hu we are, its part of our life and may people accept and acknowledge us for who and what we are. no more no less, dont be what ur not, be yourself and explore, discover and know more hu u really are.

 

 

“i for once, thought life is measured by what you have… what you earn… what your status in society is… but now as i live longer, i realize i’m not even half of what i thought i am.. many more people are better than me. smarter, wealthier, more loved and the list just goes on…”  

 

 

on the first quote, i could say that you might be a career driven person and you have high hopes for yourself and for ur dreams, and then problems sets in, creating a big fuzz and is trying to block your dreams and goals and then you start getting confused, envious then depressed, having insecurities and distrust of self, non-optimistic. cuz of things not going ur way and what you want it to be. well, thats just my opinion..

 

ofcourse all of us do have dreams and goals in life., and quality of your dreams and goals will always depend on how you were brought up and molded who u are right now, what’s the type of environment you grew upon.. let’s assume you were properly brought up by your parents cuz ur idea of life is on the level of a middle-upper class status,.. cuz if u were on the low class, it would have been different especially nowadays where poverty is on the rise.. Its always good to have dreams. and nobody has the right to laugh at anybody’s dream, may it be just a simple dream or a very very out of this world dream.. our dreams always give us something to look forward to.. some people maybe lucky enough to achieve their dreams, and some may have regreted.. the thing is, no matter what kind of dream or goal we have., achievable or not in a lifetime., we should be happy about it that we have a dream or ambitions and we have tried to achieve something extraordinary.

Some dreams or goals might stay the same when time passes and some of them may change along the course of your life., Its because somethings are beyond our control. whether we like it or not, things change and happen for a reason., Our life is never static, we wud have been living a very dull life if thats the case.,,. Our life is always changing., dreams may or may not change under some given circumstances. and our personlaties and traits may vary from what we are before.. because we are learning what a person is like and what is living with our borrowed lifes all about. And everything do happen for a reason., it might be his will. or might be our destiny or the path to achieve the optimal level of a person’s well being.

 

 

“and then i started to question.. what makes me? i’m no better… i’m being pushed too hard to aim what i can’t even think i could… i struggle.. and then i try… i struggle harder and harder and even more and yet at the end, it’s all just nothing.. coz i am just nothing. only a spec… “

 

 

and ur 2nd quote,..

in any given pressure or undisirable cirmcumstance, their is a big possibilty that we always choke up on our first try, 2nd try, 3rd try so on and so forth, until we learn how to deal with these kind of situations , and then we get experienced or in other terms veterans of war and not being a casualty… just like Michael Jordan.. how many times did he missed on a winning basket, how many times did he sucumbed to pressure, how many times did he failed his teamates expectations.. it was countless,. and he never said  to himself that he quits, never he said to himself, he will no longer take the last shot, its becuz his teamates always looks up on him to take the last shot or let the ball rest on his hands during crunch time, its up to him, whether to shoot or opt to pass, and his teamates are always ready to take the center stage if ever he opted to pass,. and thats what you call teamwork. trust and confidence overhelms any given obstacle.. And so due to his perserverance, determination, iron will and the given trust by his teamates,he has become the greatest player to ever walk on the court during his time and still maybe even today nobody has ever surpass the achievement of his airness.

 

“It’s not how many times you get knocked down but it’s how many times you get back up and go forward”

 

 

 

“my friends think i’m great, i’m lucky, and that i have everything!!!! BUT WHAT THEY DO NOT KNOW IS THAT I FEEL THAT I”M NOTHING… right now, i’m starting to think that i’m going crazy… because people see me as a very very happy, cheerful and contented person. i want to believe  iam. i do. believe me… but i just can’t seem to keep up with the act anymore…”

 

3rd quote,. i could say that having a good reputation always has its own disadvantage.. As we can see it clearly, on how your trying to protect your very self image., but then thier is always a choice for us or alternatives to compensate for the limitations of our capabilities., it up to you to decide whether to keep your reputation or not,. or you might wanna do some renovation on the image you have built upon with out ever changing the foundation of your personality.. and its okay to fail, dont be afraid to be called a failure,. failures gives us two things, discouragement due to the fact you flunked,.. but then you learned something from youre mistakes and use that negative experience as encouragement to do better next time. because their is always a second chance.. a 2nd round perhaps… or a rematch to gain you very longing freedom..  

 

 

 

“i cry… i pray… but i feel so empty.. my close friends tell me i’m alryt but i know, a hundred percent that i am not… “

 

4th.. ofcourse for women to show their weakness, they always cry. thats normal. and good thing that you pray but why are you feeling so empty.. you have your friends., family ryt?..but i bet one is lacking.,. someone or some special person hu is close to your heart, well., in that case.. dont rush it. love is always mysterious, dont solve a problem with a another problem., be open minded always.. and if you cry again.. cry with your friends., or with a special friend. dont cry alone.. i know their is always a person out there hu is more than willing to be ur crying shoulder.. and even if they dont speak or talk too much, by just having their presence is more than enough to give you comfort. Havent you felt that yet, were someone is just very happy of seeing you and not being able to express the kind of emotion they are having?.. If so, you are one of kind and special person..    

 

 

 

“literary, what i’m doing ryt now is crazy coz i’m a very private person and yet i’m pouring myself out… some things are just out of my control… “

 

last qoute.,  if you think this is crazy and out of your control.. then let it be, because it happen for a reason., we dont know what that is yet but its up to you to discover why you were brought here and created a thread.. and its ok to be private but not too much.., try to open up and share,. share ur pain, agony, regrets.. and your glorious days too.. ~paburger!

 

in that way we can understand you much better,,.. k,

cuz i still need to study,, its our midterm week.. dang!!~ and i could conclude that, your taking things too personal,.. and ur so very stiff as if you are following some kind of principle that you lay down on your path. Well, life is a journey in deed, we may be contended of what we have, be able to live in a simple-decent, honest life and live one day at a time or think differently and be unsatisfied, be a hard to please person then strive hard, do anything we can or do the impossible inorder to live a very luxurious, a very high standard kind of living. well, Its just a matter of choice upon who we want to become.

 

But then again either any type of status in the society we choose to be.. lets not forget to have fun, smile, laugh and be happy whether were ok or not, problem free or not. Just like working in a call center environment, were you as a front line agent will have a big probability that 90% of your callers are irate clients.. In the process you got stress up, furiously mad, blood pressure boiling, tension is rising… but however after a days work. we let go of those not so good experiences and taking those side comments made by the callers  unpersonal, and then ending up in videoke bars, beer houses and its still daytime and laughing out loud with your friends about the irate callers you had. 

 

And So I guess, you could try to be more social and have fun, so that you can lessen your stressful lifestyle. You might be doing something you dont like, but try to add flavor on it, and it will become more interesting. And also dont force your self too much, anything too much is bad, like too much sweet is bad, too much coffee is to no good.. And dont deprive yourself of something that you want,. And if you cant take the pressure and you feel that you will just falter in the end,. why not  change it,. I know your a med student,.. i know its hard.., why not shift as a nursing student.. lols, lots of doctors are doing that anyway.. and also, if you still have the steam or desire to become a doctor after achieving the status of a full pledge nurse,.. you might still have the chance to take it. and finished what you started and settle the old score.. cuz nobody can say that his too old  to go to school,.. life is always a learning process. everything we have experience is part of growing up. So just keep on learning, and learning,. and be happy of what your doing.. who knows you might be able to achieve the optimum level wellness of a person ..

 

 

just relax, chill, dont worry be happy cuz every little thing is gonna be alryt. 

 

ciao~

~prakx